Waiting to smile !!

If you seriously are out of business today read on else stop here and go on with your work...if u still feel u wanna continue reading i again warn u a course in Java will be a better choice than this piece of write up..OK so here it goes if u have decided to read it.....When i seriously think of writing on something i always wanna write on something i am not happy about ,i am depressed...well i am alone most of the time...i sit alone in front of the computer mostly happy but sometimes totally lonely...Am i depressed ...If this is depression i wanna know the problem...can i define my problem??...I don't know....

A year before i thought i will be the happiest person in this world if i get a JOB offer now i have a job offer still i don't smile...two months back i thought if my semester results come out well i will be happy, i got a distinction .i still feel my heart heavy...Now why am i feeling bad ???...is it becos i fought with my best friend last week ...Or is it because a very close friend of mine is miles away now...Will i be happy if i talk to my friend now ...or will i be happy only if i redefine happiness....Why should i wait for something to happen to feel happy ...why do i search for a reason to smile...but are there people in this world who are happy with out a reason ??....

If some one could write a book on how to stay happy forever i would get the first copy of it...Anyway happiness comes to me or i go it ...i wanna stay happy forever ....:)